So, tomorrow we leave for Portugal! (i'm supposed to be packing right now...:) Here's a look through of last year's trip. (i copied these from facebook since the originals are on my other computer and we all know facebook deliberately screws up your photos, but i think you get it~ Portugal is awesome. Beaches are awesome. Yep...)

this is how i feel today:


and here is a totally unrelated song. enjoy:)

(sorry it's a twilight video. i couldn't find a better one. not that i don't like twilight~ she said sheepishly as a full-grown adult woman~ ha! it just has nothing to do with XTC...)

my son: i learned my Bible verse today. "A friend loves at all times."

me: that's good, babe. that's a good verse. you know, i love you at all times.

my son: all times? you have a clock heart!

1.) press play

2.) dance around your house

3.) do it. for real.

4.) dance more ridiculously... not ridiculous enough!
ok, that'll do. i didn't say 'have a seizure.' wow...

(In the car today on the way home from Indiana...)
my son: "I have part of nana and granda because I have their pants."

me: "What?"

my son: "You have their pants and I have your pants so I have a part of nana and granda in me, too."

me: "Pants?"

my son: "Yea, not real pants. Not the kind you wear. The kind that are inside of you."

me: "Do you mean genes?"

my son: "Yea, jeans are pants."

stole this from my friend lindsay's blog



could just listen to this over and over again until i fall asleep
and speaking of sleep, since i am done with my homework before 10p.m. for once, i think i'll treat myself to an early night. ah, the simple joys in life...;)

so, for anyone who actually reads this, that whole opportunity thing i talked about in the 'this just in...' post- i'm over it. you may not know me personally, but i'm kinda awesome... and worthy and deserving of more than what i've received in this situation. i thought i wanted something but now i realise, i shouldn't want it because having it would be settling. i forgot that for a little while... i forgot who i am because i've had a rough year or so and sometimes, it's easy to just see all that is lacking in my life and character. it's easy to highlight flaws, because they seem the most likely reason for things not being the way i want them to be. i'm good at blaming myself. but i would like to be good at being proud of myself for things that merit pride.



so, incase we haven't met, here's me:

i'm fairly creative and good at making things. you might call me crafty or artsy or just plain handy cuz i do have a tool box, a screwdriver set, and a drill with a variety of drill bits and i use them all to take care of the house that i live in as the only adult with my son.

i'm a single mother of an extremely energetic child and i manage to show him love while keeping up the house and getting my homework done- did i mention i'm a senior at university? i'm a political science major and art minor, because i like everything. i'm a nerd. nerds are cool, you know it's true. i used to be an architecture major because i love science, math, and art. having my child made architecture a lil' impossible, though i'm ok with that.

i'm driven, ambitious and, quite frankly, i'm smart. i'm not conceited, i'm just being honest. i'm an extremely honest person...i'm also an extremely sarcastic person, so watch out for that.

i write, i play a few instruments- not expertly, but i'm teaching myself in a couple of them and practice time is limited in my life- i like to dance- though i'm a silly dancer- and music is pretty much as common in my life as eating.

i like to eat. i also genuinely like to exercise. handy little combination, there.

i'm european and have traveled quite a lot. i'm fairly cultured, aware and i speak a few languages and can find my way around even the most foreign of places. i currently live an ocean away from my family and i've survived.

i love God. i'm not perfect in my relationship with Him, but that's kind of the point, right? i'm involved with my church and passionate about the prayer ministry i head. i love working with youths. they're the future and they need to know how special they are at the time when they feel least special. if i can have any impact on a youth in their teen years, i feel like i've achieved something truly important.

all this to say, i'm a pretty decent human being. i've been through a lot and, by God's grace, i think i've handled my life fairly well. i deserve the best and i should act like it. so, to the situation that i feared i'd lost, i posit the loss is yours. and that if i can't have it, it's something i didn't need and God has something else for me that i will be faithful to wait upon.

something i told myself a few years ago. thought i'd reiterate:

"COMFORT" and "SECURITY" are two different things. 

so are "PERFECT" and "RIGHT"...

"Karma, karma, karma, karma, karma chameleon
You come and go, you come and go.
Loving would be easy if your colours were like my dreams,
Red, gold and green, red, gold and green..."

Can't figure out what to do with my hair cuz it's driving me crazy and I'm bored with it. So I'm gonna compile a lil' look through the past few years in my hair's life...

Long Hair:

Short Hair:
(the last two pictures were taken on the same day)

Medium-Length Hair:


Blonde Hair:


Black Hair:


Brown Hair (my son likes it cuz I look like him):


Highlighted Hair:

With Fringe (Bangs):


Without:

Pink and Purple:


Blue:


Rainbow: