i dreamed of you last night and woke up exhausted.
the other night, i dreamed of him and awoke rested.
what does that mean?

so, the past few weeks, i've been working, which has mainly consisted of research on Women's Rights and Human Trafficking. sometimes, i am overwhelmed by the apparent hopelessness in this world. where does one even start to make a difference? 'on your knees' is the only answer that i have to that question. so many of our world's problems are systemic, spiritual, and deeply and convolutedly rooted. i just want to do something. i just want to help someone. i want healing, i want restoration, i want security. i want to believe that my son isn't inheriting a worthless planet and i want to know that my existence on it meant something, did something ~ something good. i'm angry... but in a way that i think we all should be. you should be mad that your safety has been robbed, you should be mad that you don't get all the rights to which you are entitled. and if you can't be mad for yourself, and if your life seems pretty sheltered and comfortable, you should be mad for others' sake. if you're not angry to the point of wanting to do something about it, you simply do NOT understand what is going on...

but, when you're too angry and there's nothing you can do about it right then, you should blow off some steam and relax a bit. and i recommend doing this by watching 'That's How We Do It', a stand up act by comedienne Anjelah Johnson, who is funny and clean at the same time. rare find these days. the show is on 'watch instantly' for those who have netflix.

since this post started with talk of dreams, here's a song by Priscilla Ahn called Dream.